Wow, that took a lot of courage to get off your chest. Thanks for sharing that with us. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. You're allways a great guy on here and I'm sure you are many times greater in "real Life". Surround yourself with people that care about you and don't be afraid to lean on them when you need support. You won't be able to do this alone. I wish you the best, hurry back.