LP
Take from a man who has been through it four times, It gets better. I have a philosphy about the hard shit we go through and it simply is - This too shall pass. I feel for you man, it is never easy to lose the one you have loved for so many years. Take it from a pro, do what you got to do, walk away and do not look back. Do not waste time thinking about what could have been, instead concentrate on what will be. Good luck bro'